Life is a Journey

I am a Star Wars fanatic and I am a follower of Christ. The similarities between the Christian Faith and the Jedi Order have caused books to be written and I find it to be a great way to present my personal journey of faith as Jedi/Christian.

I know I am no longer a Padawan but somewhere in the midst of my knighthood my path got blurred, my faith had weakened, and I had almost lost hold of the purpose of the Jedi. Now equipped with the love of a family, a renewed hope with a purpose I am trying to find the my way back to the Order. My goal and desire is to be a Knight worthy of the honor, blessing and title of the Order. I Knight walking by deeds, words and power as I strive and grow into what the Masters have called me to be.

My Journey has not been easy and I have stumbled, struggled,
faltered, fell, even at times given up. However the Force and many of the Orders Knights and Masters haven't given up on me. So this is were you can join me in the very midst of my journey. That is the purpose of this blog. To be a place where others can join me in the journey that lies in the places somewhere between Padawan And Master. I hope to share the insight and words that touch my soul and catch hold of my intellect and my heart. To expose the things I fear and those things that spur me forward. It is my journey and I welcome you along.

Kenton J Mattos

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Met in the Midst - 06/05/32011

There are things in life we desire to see. That we believe or feel are important to us. Somethings that we even wonder why that aren't happening or why they are lacking in our lives. The thoughts and questions may even go to a place of feeling that these desires are good and beneficial to our lives. That the things we desire are the things God would want for us.

When then look at our lives, the circumstances, things with in our control and things that are not with in our control. New questions form in our minds when it comes to these desires. Such as questions regarding the validity of the desires or why the circumstances are interfering with the desires that you know are good. You may even begin to question God and why he hasn't moved you past those circumstances.

In light of recent events I am learning that some times God will meet in the midst of the very circumstances. Mandy and I have been in a place of lacking for relationship. People that we could experience life with, who could support us. A close circle of friends. Not that we don't have relationships and people who love and support us. But people who are not 2 to 3 hours away. We have blamed our work schedules, particularly mine, for not enabling us to connect in the last year and a half we have been in Washington. We have been praying and hoping for a new job for me that would change many of our circumstances. The circumstances still haven't changed and the desires and questions are going through our hearts and minds.

However, lately we have been seeing more and more provision in the midst of the circumstances. God is choosing to meet some of the desires in the midst of the things we see blocking or interfering with our dreams. hopes and desires. This doesn't mean He has meant them all. We also have some big desires and hopes which weigh us down when we see them not being met in our desired time table or time frame. Recently I wrote an entry called "a moment to smile at" which recounted a small fraction of God meeting our desire and need for relationships. We have been blessed with the opportunity to spend some time with some very special people. They have opened their lives and homes to us, despite the short amount of time we have known them. They have blessed us beyond words with smiles, prayers, coffee meetings, babysitting, and their invitation to join them in walking through life.

Even with the job circumstances not changing and some decision made that we hoped would not have to be made. He has been faithful to meet some of our needs and our desires. In the very midst of what we thought were circumstance that prevented the very desires he has met.