Thursday, December 30, 2010
Day 54 of Giving Thanks - 12/30/2010
Today I am thankful for being the father of possibly one of the cutest and most adorable creatures to walk the face of this planet. Yes I know I am biased and in this case I am proud to be biased.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Day 52 of Giving Thanks - 12/28/2010
What am I thankful for today. So far I am thankful that the bug that has gotten a hold of my wife and daughter this week has left me alone.
I am also thankful that it is a short work week.
I am also thankful that it is a short work week.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Thoughts from Tacoma Drive - 12/27/2010
I drove to Tacoma today to deliver Dexter(an aging Dog) to Mandy's Mom's Dad. During the drive I had shut off the radio for some reason and my mind began to process and wander. The topic and results of the thinking process I am not sure of why or where they came from. No matter I am going to write a majority of them down in hopes to create something understandable and possibly logical and meaningful.
Both Mandy and I have often pondered why and what the purpose of us moving to Olympia was for. We had some ideas and inclinations about parts of the move(reducing living expenses and me going to school full-time) and some things we have found to be very important and impacting in our lives(the teaching at Living Water) as we have been here for this last year. Yes it has been over a year since we left Oregon and many of the comforts and safety nets we had found or created for ourselves(maybe this was a part of why we moved).
Today's thoughts narrowed in on a particular relationship between our 4 year old daughter Jillian and an neighbor who is a close friend to Mandy's Mom. When we moved here the relationship didn't seem to have much meaning or purpose. But that changed a few months ago when this dear sweet woman found out that she had a very serious and advanced form of cancer and was given less than a year to live (not sure of the cancer type or the exact length of time given). She has chosen to do Chemo and some other treatments which have had a tremendous affect on her health and life. Between treatments and bouts of illness she is still working and serving her church.
What my thoughts really targeted in on was what Jilly was bringing to this neighbor. When Jilly goes over to check on her, give her gifts of a craft or picture Jilly has made or just hang out with her by reading or watching a movie as much as her health and mood will allow she smiles. My little girl, to whom someday very soon we will be explaining that our neighbor has passed on to be with Jesus and she won't be able to see her anymore, brings a gift of love and joy to another life. Jilly doesn't desire anything more than a friendship out of this arrangement. I think however that in her friendship she is able to give more than she and maybe even us can understand.
I have heard a lot over the last couple of years about some studies done and how some medical groups are using animals as part of their treatment programs for people who have serious illnesses such as server depression, cancers and mental disabilities. They have also used animals in helping to raise the spirits of children in hospitals and elderly people in assisted living facilities. My thought is can my little girl and possibly other children have this same effect. Could my daughter spending time with a woman her grandmother's age help her in midst of a life threatening illness. Who else could my daughter touch just by being a child who desires nothing more than interaction and companionship? Could children have the same affect as pets?
The next question in my pondering about the effect of children on the elderly was not as pleasant. It was a realization that in our society we have largely taken a position of indifference towards the elderly. So many wind up in assisted living and retirement establishments and there they are essentially forgotten. Some have no one left to remember them, family and friends have all gone before them others have been abandoned by loved ones for what ever the reasons are. It doesn't matter how or why but they are there.
They have lived their lives, they have labored at their jobs, and they have made their homes. That is all behind them and in the past. But we have seemed to have forgotten that it was upon their lives that the very society that has forgotten them was built. It was these people who survived recessions and wars far greater than we have know in our life times. But they have done their deeds and can be discarded. I began to question the wisdom in that and realized something.
We have put more value in knowledge we can learn from a book, the internet or some expert who has spent years studying than we do in the wisdom(applied knowledge) of the people who have lived and experienced far more than us. When we have an issue with our relationships we turn to Oprah, Dr. Phil, Self Help books, Counselors, girlfriends, our parents and list just keeps going. I am not saying some of these sources are not a good place to go. There is an issue when the source has no experience to go with the advice they share. But the elderly man or woman who is sitting in that nursing home all alone after their spouse died 5 years ago after 50 years of marriage might be a better place to go. But they have outlasted their usefulness right? Heck they can't even use a cell phone and they don't even know what the internet is let alone facebook.
What wisdom can my little girl get by spending time with someone more experienced then her. Isn't that my job as a parent to share my knowledge and experience with her. Does my usefulness as a teacher and adviser end when she becomes a teen(she may think so), or after she graduates high school or college, or when I retire from working or when I am 80? I don't think so. I think as a nation we are destroying and losing a great asset each day we continue down this path of indifference. We need to reach out to those who are older than us, those who have experienced more life and have lived their lives. If we handicap ourselves and set ourselves up for many mistakes that could have been avoided if we would have sought wisdom from those who have lived life before us.
My thoughts ended on this question. Who would get more out of taking the time to relate with people like my neighbor? People who have lived, suffered, experienced and enjoyed more life than ourselves and are now only wanting some companionship, a chance to see life lived in ways they can no longer, and the joy of imparting themselves to those who come after them.
Two thoughts I leave with you and myself.
1) Is there a place in your life where you need wisdom and wise counsel?
2) Is there a life of some one beyond your years that is in need of companionship?
Both Mandy and I have often pondered why and what the purpose of us moving to Olympia was for. We had some ideas and inclinations about parts of the move(reducing living expenses and me going to school full-time) and some things we have found to be very important and impacting in our lives(the teaching at Living Water) as we have been here for this last year. Yes it has been over a year since we left Oregon and many of the comforts and safety nets we had found or created for ourselves(maybe this was a part of why we moved).
Today's thoughts narrowed in on a particular relationship between our 4 year old daughter Jillian and an neighbor who is a close friend to Mandy's Mom. When we moved here the relationship didn't seem to have much meaning or purpose. But that changed a few months ago when this dear sweet woman found out that she had a very serious and advanced form of cancer and was given less than a year to live (not sure of the cancer type or the exact length of time given). She has chosen to do Chemo and some other treatments which have had a tremendous affect on her health and life. Between treatments and bouts of illness she is still working and serving her church.
What my thoughts really targeted in on was what Jilly was bringing to this neighbor. When Jilly goes over to check on her, give her gifts of a craft or picture Jilly has made or just hang out with her by reading or watching a movie as much as her health and mood will allow she smiles. My little girl, to whom someday very soon we will be explaining that our neighbor has passed on to be with Jesus and she won't be able to see her anymore, brings a gift of love and joy to another life. Jilly doesn't desire anything more than a friendship out of this arrangement. I think however that in her friendship she is able to give more than she and maybe even us can understand.
I have heard a lot over the last couple of years about some studies done and how some medical groups are using animals as part of their treatment programs for people who have serious illnesses such as server depression, cancers and mental disabilities. They have also used animals in helping to raise the spirits of children in hospitals and elderly people in assisted living facilities. My thought is can my little girl and possibly other children have this same effect. Could my daughter spending time with a woman her grandmother's age help her in midst of a life threatening illness. Who else could my daughter touch just by being a child who desires nothing more than interaction and companionship? Could children have the same affect as pets?
The next question in my pondering about the effect of children on the elderly was not as pleasant. It was a realization that in our society we have largely taken a position of indifference towards the elderly. So many wind up in assisted living and retirement establishments and there they are essentially forgotten. Some have no one left to remember them, family and friends have all gone before them others have been abandoned by loved ones for what ever the reasons are. It doesn't matter how or why but they are there.
They have lived their lives, they have labored at their jobs, and they have made their homes. That is all behind them and in the past. But we have seemed to have forgotten that it was upon their lives that the very society that has forgotten them was built. It was these people who survived recessions and wars far greater than we have know in our life times. But they have done their deeds and can be discarded. I began to question the wisdom in that and realized something.
We have put more value in knowledge we can learn from a book, the internet or some expert who has spent years studying than we do in the wisdom(applied knowledge) of the people who have lived and experienced far more than us. When we have an issue with our relationships we turn to Oprah, Dr. Phil, Self Help books, Counselors, girlfriends, our parents and list just keeps going. I am not saying some of these sources are not a good place to go. There is an issue when the source has no experience to go with the advice they share. But the elderly man or woman who is sitting in that nursing home all alone after their spouse died 5 years ago after 50 years of marriage might be a better place to go. But they have outlasted their usefulness right? Heck they can't even use a cell phone and they don't even know what the internet is let alone facebook.
What wisdom can my little girl get by spending time with someone more experienced then her. Isn't that my job as a parent to share my knowledge and experience with her. Does my usefulness as a teacher and adviser end when she becomes a teen(she may think so), or after she graduates high school or college, or when I retire from working or when I am 80? I don't think so. I think as a nation we are destroying and losing a great asset each day we continue down this path of indifference. We need to reach out to those who are older than us, those who have experienced more life and have lived their lives. If we handicap ourselves and set ourselves up for many mistakes that could have been avoided if we would have sought wisdom from those who have lived life before us.
My thoughts ended on this question. Who would get more out of taking the time to relate with people like my neighbor? People who have lived, suffered, experienced and enjoyed more life than ourselves and are now only wanting some companionship, a chance to see life lived in ways they can no longer, and the joy of imparting themselves to those who come after them.
Two thoughts I leave with you and myself.
1) Is there a place in your life where you need wisdom and wise counsel?
2) Is there a life of some one beyond your years that is in need of companionship?
Proverbs 19:27 (New Living Translation)
If you stop listening to instruction, my child, you will turn your back on knowledgeDay 51 of Giving Thanks - 12/27/2010
My Family left today and made it home safely. A good thing to be thankful for. Not the leaving part, they hadn't becoming that much of a nuisance yet, but the making it home safely part.
I also was able to get Dexter back to Mandy's Grandpa who made it safely home from California today. Another good thing to be thankful for. This time the leaving part was a good thing. Dexter is an old dog and at times can be hard to care for.
I also was able to get Dexter back to Mandy's Grandpa who made it safely home from California today. Another good thing to be thankful for. This time the leaving part was a good thing. Dexter is an old dog and at times can be hard to care for.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Day 50 of Giving Thanks - 12/26/2010
Today was another good day. I got to spend most of my day with my Mom, sisters and nephew it was great until I had to go to work.
Work was extremely slow and I was able to leave early to spend more time with my family.
So today I am thankful for my time with them and all the fun we had.
Work was extremely slow and I was able to leave early to spend more time with my family.
So today I am thankful for my time with them and all the fun we had.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Christmas Thanks - 12/25/2010
A house full of people an possibly the best turkey dinner I have made and one of the best Turkeys I have ever eaten. That is a great thing to be thankful for. Especially when everyone is in a agreement with me. Thank you God for gifting me in this way. I enjoy cooking and love to share it with others. It is always enjoyable to me to be able to host and have guests in our home. Yet another place where I am glad that God has gifted me.
Thank you family for blessing us with your time and gifts this Christmas season. We greatly appreciate all you have done for us and given us. More than anything we are thankful for the love and life that you share with us.
Lastly and not the least I am thankful for the gift of God in the birth of His Son Jesus. This birth is the whole reason why we celebrate today. In all we have done we have tried to remember what God has done for us. All of the blessings, all of the provisions, all the friends and all the family which we have been given. These are all part of the gift that a birth over 2000 years ago have allowed us to more fully appreciate. The life of Jesus is a gift that never stops giving. From the restoration of man to God to the daily involvement in our lives through His provision. We have much to celebrate and much to be thankful for. I only hope our hearts will stay gracious and our eyes continually open to all God has and is doing in our lives.
Thank you family for blessing us with your time and gifts this Christmas season. We greatly appreciate all you have done for us and given us. More than anything we are thankful for the love and life that you share with us.
Lastly and not the least I am thankful for the gift of God in the birth of His Son Jesus. This birth is the whole reason why we celebrate today. In all we have done we have tried to remember what God has done for us. All of the blessings, all of the provisions, all the friends and all the family which we have been given. These are all part of the gift that a birth over 2000 years ago have allowed us to more fully appreciate. The life of Jesus is a gift that never stops giving. From the restoration of man to God to the daily involvement in our lives through His provision. We have much to celebrate and much to be thankful for. I only hope our hearts will stay gracious and our eyes continually open to all God has and is doing in our lives.
Christmas Eve Thanks - 12/24/2010
Today I am glad to say and am very thankful for the glimpses of and the feelings of Christmas.
The last few years have been a struggle for me to catch the Christmas Spirit. Some of this I feel has to do with my current occupation which surrounds me and inundates me daily with the commercial and materialism of what Christmas has become.
This year has been particularly hard to find that spirit for both Mandy and I. But after a nice service at church, a day of wrapping presents and last minute preparations, Time spent with Mandy's dad and Jodi enjoying desert and presents, and being able to look forward to all that Christmas Day will bring. They Joy and Christmas Spirit has began to make its way into my heart this Christmas Eve.
So Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.
Kenton
The last few years have been a struggle for me to catch the Christmas Spirit. Some of this I feel has to do with my current occupation which surrounds me and inundates me daily with the commercial and materialism of what Christmas has become.
This year has been particularly hard to find that spirit for both Mandy and I. But after a nice service at church, a day of wrapping presents and last minute preparations, Time spent with Mandy's dad and Jodi enjoying desert and presents, and being able to look forward to all that Christmas Day will bring. They Joy and Christmas Spirit has began to make its way into my heart this Christmas Eve.
So Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.
Kenton
Friday, December 24, 2010
Day 47 of Giving Thanks - 12/23/2010
I am thankful for surviving another season of Christmas at Fred Meyer. Lord willing it will be my last.
Retail can really put a damper on ones appreciation for the holidays. So me a favor and the next time you are in a retail store take a moment and appreciate what we do for you.
Retail can really put a damper on ones appreciation for the holidays. So me a favor and the next time you are in a retail store take a moment and appreciate what we do for you.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Day 45 of Giving Thanks - 12/21/2010
Today I am thankful for every moment I am able to spend with my daughter and my wife. The moments we all get to be together are often short and infrequent throughout the week. Thankfully we have Saturdays and most of Sunday together almost every week. But to often the weekends get filled with stuff to do and people to see so again time for us as a family can get scarce. But the moments we have are precious and needed. I am thankful for each moment.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Miracle
This post is a question and answer post. I am asking a question and hoping you my readers will answer it. I have been mulling over the subject of miracles after something I read recently. In preparation of a post regarding this subject I wanted to get some other peoples opinions.
Enough babble lets ask the questions and get your responses.
1) In your own words define what a miracle is?
2) Do you believe in miracles and do they occur in life today?
Please respond either as a comment or you can send me a email.
Enough babble lets ask the questions and get your responses.
1) In your own words define what a miracle is?
2) Do you believe in miracles and do they occur in life today?
Please respond either as a comment or you can send me a email.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Day 44 a Prayer of Thanksgiving - 12/20/2010
Lord,
I am reminded tonight of many things I have to be thankful for. Just the reminder of those things is something to be thankful for. To me the reminders sometimes gentle like a soft breeze and other times they are like hitting a car a high speed. Either case the fact that you take the time to remind me of the things you have done and the blessing my family has received are testimony of your working in my life. Your working despite my fear, my reluctance at times and out right rebellion at others. You keep working and working. Thank you for being a God of patience and love. I know I would have given up on me a long time ago. Yet another good reason why you are God and I am not.
My family is to me the greatest of blessings and at times frustration. Even in the rough times I want to be thankful for the gift of family. Help me with that goal. I am very thankful for my three greatest blessings. My lovely wife, my adorable daughter and my soon coming son. God I thank you for them and all they have and will bring to my life. The miracle of my marriage to Mandy is another proof for me of your love and desire to interact in my life. Thanks for reminding me yet again of that.
We have been blessed with provision for our needs and have never as a family had to be with out shelter, food, clothing or any of the real necessities of life. Yes we have had to sacrifice some of our desires and wants. But you have always provided for the needs. Even in the times where our stewardship or hearts have not been in the right place you have provided. I can also gladly say you have allowed us at many points and times to be the tool of blessing in other peoples lives. If it has been through providing a place for a friend to crash or live or the ability to gift money to help provide food and gifts for less fortunate people we don't even know. Your provision has been great and I am truly thankful for Your working in our lives.
Thank You God for all you do. Especially when you do it when we come no where close to deserving it.
Kenton Mattos
I am reminded tonight of many things I have to be thankful for. Just the reminder of those things is something to be thankful for. To me the reminders sometimes gentle like a soft breeze and other times they are like hitting a car a high speed. Either case the fact that you take the time to remind me of the things you have done and the blessing my family has received are testimony of your working in my life. Your working despite my fear, my reluctance at times and out right rebellion at others. You keep working and working. Thank you for being a God of patience and love. I know I would have given up on me a long time ago. Yet another good reason why you are God and I am not.
My family is to me the greatest of blessings and at times frustration. Even in the rough times I want to be thankful for the gift of family. Help me with that goal. I am very thankful for my three greatest blessings. My lovely wife, my adorable daughter and my soon coming son. God I thank you for them and all they have and will bring to my life. The miracle of my marriage to Mandy is another proof for me of your love and desire to interact in my life. Thanks for reminding me yet again of that.
We have been blessed with provision for our needs and have never as a family had to be with out shelter, food, clothing or any of the real necessities of life. Yes we have had to sacrifice some of our desires and wants. But you have always provided for the needs. Even in the times where our stewardship or hearts have not been in the right place you have provided. I can also gladly say you have allowed us at many points and times to be the tool of blessing in other peoples lives. If it has been through providing a place for a friend to crash or live or the ability to gift money to help provide food and gifts for less fortunate people we don't even know. Your provision has been great and I am truly thankful for Your working in our lives.
Thank You God for all you do. Especially when you do it when we come no where close to deserving it.
Kenton Mattos
Monday, December 13, 2010
Double Dose - 12/13/2010
This weekends sermon by Pastor Jon Cobler hit home yet again. I found his words striking my heart and mind again and again. It has been amazing how God has used Living Water and the pastor there to speak to my heart and Mandy's heart. We have been greatly blessed and challenged on a regular bases in our time and season here. Thank you Lord for that and please keep it going.
The message this time was about the good news of Jesus being the Savior who is Christ the Lord(Luke 2:11). Pastor Jon's message focused in on the fact that not only are we saved from eternal separation from God(hell) but from the power of sin in our lives here on earth. We are not just talking about things like murder, abuse, drunkenness, adultery and the big sins. This includes the sins that we often see as lesser and even at times don't see as sin at all. Here is a list from Timothy which Pastor Jon referenced.
Early tonight, or last night as my blog writing has entered the next day, I picked up a book that I started a few months ago and haven't picked up in a while. You can probably guess where this is going. Yeah the chapter I read was about sin and how to overcome it. Again one sin registers on my radar that Dr. Swindoll mentions in Hand Me Another Brick. . . . Self-control.
What are some areas where you lack self-control in your life? Had you ever thought of it as a sin? Did you think that it could be impacting your life and those around you? I know I had to do some thinking about this. I know my life and my walk have definitely been and are being affected by my lack of self-control.
The good news like Pastor Jon said is that Jesus has provided us with a way to conquer sin. I am happy and encouraged to say I believe he is working in me right now. I am learning and seeking His solutions to overcoming the sins plaguing me. I hope that this battle and the victory will be an example to myself and others. So the journey and the adventure continues.
This is the path of the light side. It is the path of the God Follower. Changing and growing into something better and beyond what you have become.
PS More to come...
The message this time was about the good news of Jesus being the Savior who is Christ the Lord(Luke 2:11). Pastor Jon's message focused in on the fact that not only are we saved from eternal separation from God(hell) but from the power of sin in our lives here on earth. We are not just talking about things like murder, abuse, drunkenness, adultery and the big sins. This includes the sins that we often see as lesser and even at times don't see as sin at all. Here is a list from Timothy which Pastor Jon referenced.
2 Timothy 3:2-4 (New Living Translation)
2 For people will love only themselves and their money. They will be boastful and proud, scoffing at God, disobedient to their parents, and ungrateful. They will consider nothing sacred. 3 They will be unloving and unforgiving; they will slander others and have no self-control. They will be cruel and hate what is good. 4 They will betray their friends, be reckless, be puffed up with pride, and love pleasure rather than God.
Let me target in on the ones that registered on my radar. No self-control and love pleasure rather than God. Ever since service I have been pondering and mulling over this. I know there are many areas where I lack self-control and/or discipline. I had been working through my list and praying about them on Sunday. That was Sunday and today is Monday. God wasn't done with me or with this topic.Early tonight, or last night as my blog writing has entered the next day, I picked up a book that I started a few months ago and haven't picked up in a while. You can probably guess where this is going. Yeah the chapter I read was about sin and how to overcome it. Again one sin registers on my radar that Dr. Swindoll mentions in Hand Me Another Brick. . . . Self-control.
What are some areas where you lack self-control in your life? Had you ever thought of it as a sin? Did you think that it could be impacting your life and those around you? I know I had to do some thinking about this. I know my life and my walk have definitely been and are being affected by my lack of self-control.
The good news like Pastor Jon said is that Jesus has provided us with a way to conquer sin. I am happy and encouraged to say I believe he is working in me right now. I am learning and seeking His solutions to overcoming the sins plaguing me. I hope that this battle and the victory will be an example to myself and others. So the journey and the adventure continues.
This is the path of the light side. It is the path of the God Follower. Changing and growing into something better and beyond what you have become.
PS More to come...
Day 36 of Giving Thanks - 12/12/2010
Today I am thankful that we had a weekend spent with people we love and care about. Even if the weekend didn't go as we had planned.
Thanks for coming and visiting us Rats.. We love you all very much. Thank you and thank God for you.
Thanks for coming and visiting us Rats.. We love you all very much. Thank you and thank God for you.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Star Wars Decorations - 12/10/2010
Mandy 
Today there was a lot of ups and downs for the day. A lot of work and a little fun.
I am thankful that I am capable of volunteering my time and skills. Today I was able to help install the big toy at my daughters preschool.
Today we also started our Christmas decorating and despite some rough moments and short tempers it was a good start.
It was good for me especially when my loving wife encouraged me to put out my star wars Christmas decorations which haven't been used since the last Christmas in our old house.
Beautiful,
Thank you for loving me and supporting me fanaticism. I am a blessed man and in moments like this loved and understood.
Love
Kenton
Today there was a lot of ups and downs for the day. A lot of work and a little fun.
I am thankful that I am capable of volunteering my time and skills. Today I was able to help install the big toy at my daughters preschool.
Today we also started our Christmas decorating and despite some rough moments and short tempers it was a good start.
It was good for me especially when my loving wife encouraged me to put out my star wars Christmas decorations which haven't been used since the last Christmas in our old house.
Beautiful,
Thank you for loving me and supporting me fanaticism. I am a blessed man and in moments like this loved and understood.
Love
Kenton
Friday, December 10, 2010
Day 32 of Giving Thanks - 12/09/2010
Thank you lord that tonight at this time I am now enjoying my weekend. I am looking forward to decorating and seeing some friends this weekend.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Day 32 of Giving Thanks - 12/08/2010
Today I am thankful for when I feel stimulated and provoked by something I read.
I am looking forward to a post I want to write.
I am looking forward to a post I want to write.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Day 31 Of Giving Thanks - 12/07/2010
I have missed a few days of posting. But I am trying to get going again and I am thankful for that. I am also thankful for the changes that the future holds.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Day 27 Of Giving Thanks - 12/3/2010
Today was a hard day. However at the end of the day I can say I pressed forward and tried to keep my head up and moving forward. For this I am thankful.
Day 26 of Giving Thanks - 12/02/2010
Today I am thankful for my love of food and cooking. I am glad it is something I get to enjoy doing and experimenting.
Day 25 of Giving Thanks - 12/01/2010
I am thankful for the birth of my father who was born on this day many years ago. I am also very thankful for the his rebirth and awakening of his faith. This rebirth has allowed for a restoration of a father son relationship I am grateful for.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Day 24 Prayer of Thanksgiving - 11/30/2010
Today I am going to write a prayer of thanksgiving.
Lord,
I am thankful for the life you have given me. The Wife who I have and the daughter you have blessed us with. I am thankful for the blessing of new life we are being allowed to experience with the current pregnancy. I am glad and filled with gratitude that all of this has been done for me. Especially when I look at the vastness and magnitude of all your creation. The fact that you have done all this for me is at times unbelievable.
At times I think it is easier to believe that these great miracles in my life are just chance. But there is too much beyond my family for me to believe in random occurrences. You have saved me and brought me out of to much for there not to be a purpose. I again find myself thankful for all you do. The life you have brought me out of and saved me from. I am thankful for the family you have pulled from the hands of death, drugs and addictions. I have seen to much grace and mercy to believe that you are not there loving me.
Then why at times is it so hard to but faith in your love for me. To believe you have the best for me and that despite my humanity and frailty that you have a plan for me. To hope for the dreams I have had. My flesh and mind battle against my spirit which is telling me you do love, you do care, you are there for me and directing me. I am thankful for my spirit and the work you have been doing in my heart and mind over this last year in regards to my faith and hope.
I am truly thankful for all of the words that are being spoken into my life now. The lessons I am learning and the work you are doing on and in me. I am thankful that despite doubt, fear, pride and stubbornness your love for me has ended or hasn't ended me. Keep teaching and changing me.
Thank you Lord.
Lord,
I am thankful for the life you have given me. The Wife who I have and the daughter you have blessed us with. I am thankful for the blessing of new life we are being allowed to experience with the current pregnancy. I am glad and filled with gratitude that all of this has been done for me. Especially when I look at the vastness and magnitude of all your creation. The fact that you have done all this for me is at times unbelievable.
At times I think it is easier to believe that these great miracles in my life are just chance. But there is too much beyond my family for me to believe in random occurrences. You have saved me and brought me out of to much for there not to be a purpose. I again find myself thankful for all you do. The life you have brought me out of and saved me from. I am thankful for the family you have pulled from the hands of death, drugs and addictions. I have seen to much grace and mercy to believe that you are not there loving me.
Then why at times is it so hard to but faith in your love for me. To believe you have the best for me and that despite my humanity and frailty that you have a plan for me. To hope for the dreams I have had. My flesh and mind battle against my spirit which is telling me you do love, you do care, you are there for me and directing me. I am thankful for my spirit and the work you have been doing in my heart and mind over this last year in regards to my faith and hope.
I am truly thankful for all of the words that are being spoken into my life now. The lessons I am learning and the work you are doing on and in me. I am thankful that despite doubt, fear, pride and stubbornness your love for me has ended or hasn't ended me. Keep teaching and changing me.
Thank you Lord.
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